My days have been filled with work and yet I'm hardly making any money, we've been sick and exhausted and there's been a lot of going to bed by 9:30 (for me) earlier for Rowe. There's been a lot of canceled plans...day of...that have just thrown me off and while I try to make the most of it, I end up feeling like I've accomplished nothing. I'm trying so hard to move forward with so many things in life and yet I feel like I'm constantly being held back, unable to change.
Hopefully things WILL be changing by mid to end of February, the salon is going to see a little less of me in hopes of me seeing more of my clients (I know that sounds weird but it makes sense, I promise!), and not just that, but it should mean more free time with Roweyn. More play dates, more adventures, more of us being together. I am taking my very first OVERNIGHT trip without Roweyn. A HUGE GIANT BIG DEAL for me! I've never gone more than maybe 9 hours without seeing her and we've never spent a night apart in the 25 months that she's been out of my belly. But the opportunity presented itself and if I don't do it now, it might never happen! I'm nervous as heck and it makes me want to cry just thinking about spending the night without her but I NEED THIS SO BADLY! It just has to happen or I will just keep running myself into the ground. I am in a very slow process of weaning Roweyn, it's been rough with us both getting sick so we've moved forward, taken a few steps back and are moving forward again, also hoping that maybe this trip will help move it along even more!
I'm already thinking about our Summer schedule, a dance class for Roweyn and possibly swim lessons and will try to throw in a few short trips for some new adventures. Preschool sign ups for Fall are drawing near and I've decided to move her up into the next class that is called the Younger Side, which means she'll be going 2 days a week for 3 hours a day with me only there helping out in the class a couple times a month. It's a pretty big step for both of us, her class she's in now, I'm with her the entire time and it's a little less than 2 hours so a pretty big change, she'll also be a little younger than the other kids. I decided to do this because I feel like even now she could be in something 2 days a week. And I'll be able to work during that time on at least one of those days which will work out great.
Anyways I know I just threw out a lot in this post but it's the easiest way to get it out at this time and hopefully in the future I'll be able to spend more time writing!
So now I'll leave you with a few of the quotes I found on Pinterest that I'm really liking this week!
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